WE ALL SEE WHAT WE WANT TO SEE. This subjective experience is termed “maya” or “samsara”. You are what moves you emotionally, not what you think or think you are. Everyone has things that really MOVEs them positively or negatively. That collection is the core of the trans-migratory soul. The remainder is the vehicle to express and “perform” the mission of the “soul” (the word ‘soul’ being used very loosely here).
So, the things that move you are the things you find INSIDE you. Your world is an EXPRESSION of that, i.e., how your world is organized and what you are all about and doing. Example: the job you have, the relationship you have, the triggers you have, the expectations you have, the financial status you have, etc., has some connection to your core, directly or indirectly.
There is a meditation you can do to clear your mind / karma etc:
Step 1: Forgive EVERYBODY TRULY
Step 2: Excuse yourself from all the harm you have done, caused, said, thought, etc.
Step 3: Define how you want your life to be.
Step 4: Mentally empty your mind, body, heart etc. Empty meaning, don’t think, just feel your body. In that state,
Step 5: Visualize yourself as a pure light being, as an angel, ascended master, whatever you want to call it. A being of pure radiance. At this point,
Step 6: Ask this being to point out the psychic wounds that are HIDDEN and are causing self destructive behaviors.
You need to be very very calm and extremely intuitive as this is going on because the perfect radiant being you visualize is in fact all of creation. So, the answer may well be something you have totally forgotten. It’s like your are plugging into all of existence.
once u have done this, Say thanks, take the points from the answer back into your real life and match it to certain negative patterns. They generally line up perfectly. Guilt, anger, or even a false perception of self; so many things can be.
Once you do this a couple of times, SELF CONFIDENCE GROWS TO FILL THE VOID THAT THE DEPARTING SELF DEFEATING THOUGHT AND BEHAVIOUR PATTERNS LEAVE. Once this happens you will see how to be happy independent of what’s going on around you. But remember, the FIRST step is total utter forgiveness and gratitude, removing that need for revenge.
In other words we all carry bad behavior around and we cover it up with various justifications. Remove the justification and the bad behavior stands exposed for what it is; bad in any sense, including self sabotage; and immediately the reasons will arise, generally some twisted notion of self, or some shock you never got over as a small child.
Do this meditation regularly, even for 10 minutes when you are waiting for your train, bus, flight, meeting, phone call, food to cook, etc. Habits come from habitual thinking. So, if you clean up the thinking pipeline regularly, slowly and eventually you can eliminate all the traits of the past. This process, in my view, is enlightenment. en light ten, to shed light on, aka to lighten up. 🙂
You need to be clear that the sand, wind, water, fire, metal used to make your body is drawn from this planet and the planet in turn draws it from this known universe. So, “we” are in fact inhabiting a specific pattern of seeing. It’s like some people watch ESPN, others watch CNN. Our habits create everything and the emotional core (talked about earlier) creates our habits.
Look at that word e-motion! Wonder what the e is for? We are chemicals in motion (if you can break emotions down to chemicals, which science can and has done to some extent). Considering it all, what we really are is a set of isotonic fluids reacting with each other, water + salts, a bio mechanical device. That’s how we communicate with the universe because the universe is made of the same. We ARE the bio mechanical device with emotional core inside another bio mechanical device with emotional core and so on. We take on this device because we need it to operate.
THAT EMOTIONAL CORE IS WHAT IS REFERRED TO AS THE SYSTEM WE USE TO SEE THE “WORLD”.
Think of it, only humans can appreciate music, poetry, spirituality, etc,. why?
We are capable of separating this from that, this type of holding, this to be OK and that to be NOT ok. This is our framework and we accepted that to become human.
You see what I am driving at here?
a. Change your framework and you change your self.
b. Repeated exercise of the framework creates habit.
Even a ball of gas reacts, but as beings we have the choice to remain non-reactive and equanimous and be completely aware of our body/mind/heart complex in the NOW!
PS: This is composed from a skype conversation I had with my best heart-felt friend/mentor who lives in Austria.